I think of you and your beautiful Mom often. Although I never had the pleasure of meeting you, I feel as if I've known you. Your life touches me, you are such a beautiful and precious angel. I admire your strength in dealing with this horrible illness, and how at peace you were with our Lord and Savior. I know you felt comforted in the fact that He will take care of all things.
You are at peace now. No longer suffering. Please watch over my son, Kenneth. Keep him strong. My heart aches for the both of you - the fact that neither of you are here (physically) with us. We miss you so dearly. There are no words in the english dictionary to describe this pain - every parents worst nightmare - the loss of a child.
I admire your Mom so much. I constantly say to myself "if Marilyn can live through this, then so can I" she's that much of an inspiration to me.
You will always be in my heart and prayers. I will never forget you and the impact you and your Mom have made in my life after the loss of my son.
God Bless you all. My love to the entire family.
I know our Christmases will never be the same . . . all we can do is try.
Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Matthew 11:28
When Rachel was about two years old, we bought a tiny nativity scene at Watson's, her favorite department store. We brought it home, tore off the plastic, and looked for the best place to display it. She instantly fell in love with the little people and animals-especially baby Jesus.
As we set it up on the shelf, I told her the story of Mary and Joseph, the three wise men, the shepherds, and the birth of the little baby. I'm sure she didn't understand much of what I told her, but she listened intently. All through the day I noticed Rachel looking at the manger display.
A few days later while I was dusting, I noticed the baby Jesus figure was missing. I looked around for it thinking it might have fallen of the shelf, but it was nowhere to be found. When I asked Becky if she had seen it, I noticed Rachel looked a bit funny-like she might be the guilty party. So I asked her if she had seen it. She just look wide - eyed at me. I asked her again. Relunctantly she took down her Christmas stocking and pulled out the tiny figure. I put it back in the display.
All through that Christmas season and for several years to come, Rachel kept her fascination for the nativity scene especially the "littlest" one. She would carry the baby Jesus around in her little hand or she would find various hiding places for Him. I never understood the enthrallment she had for the tiny plastic baby Jesus. Maybe she knew, in some way, how special the real baby Jesus was.
The tiny nativity set was replaced by a larger one several years ago, but I still have the little one. It sIts on top of Rachel's chest of drawers where she displayed it the last few years of her life. She never outgrew her love for her tiny baby Jesus. Close
Our 4th Christmas Without RACHEL / Mom
It was Christmas Eve, 2002. The day had come to an end and everyone was in bed. The grandkids were all excited for Santa to come. The adults were probably a bit pleased that all of the hustle and bustle of the day had finally come to an end. The house was still and the only sounds to be heard was Hope's occasional barking and the whirring of the heat pump.
I used to be the kind of person who falls asleep as soon as my head hit the pillow. However, the challenges of the year had brought many sleepless nights of me laying on the bed staring out the window until the wee hours of the morning. Prayer and thoughtfulness had become a major part of my life.My youngest daughter had finished cancer treatment in July and we were all trying to resume a normal life.
That night as I lay in bed, I reflected on all that had happened that year. It had been a year since she was diagnosed and began treatments. She had gone back to college and to work at her part time job. I wanted to believe that all of that cancer stuff was behind her, but the symptoms of the disease were back. None of us talked about it though. I guess we didin't want to believe it. Life at that moment was good.
I had had forty-nine Christmases in my life, and although I couldn't remember them all, I realized that night that "this" was the best Christmas ever. I had everything I could ever want right there in my little home. I had a husband who loved me very much. Becky and Steve were there with all four of our grandchildren. And of course, Rachel was well and so very happy. We were all happy. What more could anyone ask for? I realized that I had every one who was dearest to me right there with me. As I drifted off to sleep, I thanked God above for the blessings He had bestowed upon us.
We had two more Christmases to spend with our sweet Rach. This year will bring our third one without her. Every day is hard living without her, but Christmas is especially hard. She loved Christmas and everything about it. She brought so much joy to our lives-her enthusiasm, the sparkle in her blue eyes, her beautiful smile that could light up a room. She was truly a gift of God, and although she isn't with us any more, her light continues to shine. My love for her continues to grow and I will continue to miss her until the day we meet again. Close
Happy Thanksgiving To You & Your Family Rachel! / Carol Pizzi (Angel Debbie's Mom )Read >>
Happy Thanksgiving To You & Your Family Rachel! / Carol Pizzi (Angel Debbie's Mom )
time/ Scrapy Barnes (daddy)
time- is passing-rachel has gone home-we that are left behind can only get ready- will have but one mountain to climb-that is mt calvary -the big homecoming is about to take place-when we die or when jesus comes back if we are not ready -it won t matter- it will be over- the bible don t say anything about salvation after death-heaven or hell is just a heart beat away-rachel was ready and is waiting for the rest of us to get ready to meet in heaven-questions then won t matter -heaven will surly be worth it all--i have met a lot of people here on earth- we will want to see JESUS when we all get to heaven- -no more tears of sorrow-i know rachel would want all of us to meet her there-for the greatest homecoming of them all-i miss you rachel- Close
Remembering The Life of Rachel ((Marilyn)) / Carol Pizzi (Angel Debbie's Mom )Read >>
Remembering The Life of Rachel ((Marilyn)) / Carol Pizzi (Angel Debbie's Mom )
Holding you close in thoughts and prayers as we remember your Precious Angel Rachel on her heavenly anniversary. Pray the day goes peacefully for you and you receive many signs from your angel. A candle will burn in memory of your angel. Love & Hugs Carol WWW.myangelsonmichael.Com [IMG]http://img.photobucket.Com/albums/v631/memall2003/MICHuytAEL31.jpg[/IMG]
Dear Marylin, Here's wishing you the best in rejoicing on your daughter's wonderful life. To "celebrate" a child's Birthday while they are in Heaven is very painful. The love & pride you have for Rachel beams off this wonderful websit you made in her honor. God bless Rachel & you.
Just a little note to let you know you are all my thoughts and prayers as your "sweet Rachel's" Birthday & anniversary are near. I'm sure and know the past months have been difficult and the process remains the same. I think of you daily Marilyn as I watch my dear friend Deb continue to battle the 'approching months', and how to get thru them. Howie sometimes seems more devestaded in the month of June, since at one time it was such a different feeling for them. Of course Jill loved that month. it meant summer, school's out and of course her b-day, as I'm sure this month ofJuly has the same feelings of these beautiful angels each of you have had taken.
Please feel free if you would like to share a story of your "Rachel" during one of her crazy birthday events, I would love to hear one, if you can share it. Sometimes it's good therapy..and god knows we all need it..lololo :)
Rachel's page is beautiful! What a sweet looking child and adorable baby. I Love the newest pics and how you design it so purple and beautiful :)
A happy July 4th also to you and your family, I do hope your celebration of this day is a decent one full of fireworks, stories and laughter :)
Dear Mom, Remember I am always near to you leaving small signs of my love, peace and strength for you and my precious family...Love never dies xxx
Thought you would like these lyrics to the song Lost by Michael Buble. I had it playing on James' site a while back and feel it was written by our Angels for us xxx
I can't believe it's over I watched the whole thing fall And I never saw the writing that was on the wall If I'd only knew The days were slipping past That the good things never last That you were crying
Summer turned to winter And the snow it turned to rain And the rain turned into tears upon your face I hardly recognized the girl you are today And god I hope it's not too late It's not too late 'Cause you are not alone I'm always there with you And we'll get lost together Till the light comes pouring through 'Cause when you feel like you're done And the darkness has won Babe, you're not lost When your worlds crashing down And you can't bear the thought I said, babe, you're not lost
Life can show no mercy It can tear your soul apart It can make you feel like you've gone crazy But you're not Things have seem to changed There's one thing that's still the same In my heart you have remained And we can fly fly fly away
'Cause you are not alone And I am there with you And we'll get lost together Till the light comes pouring through 'Cause when you feel like you're done And the darkness has won Babe, you're not lost When the worlds crashing down And you can not bear the cross I said, baby, you're not lost I said, baby, you're not lost I said, baby, you're not lost I said, baby, you're not lost
Good book to read: Love Never Dies by Sandy Goodman..True story of a mother's grief from loss to love x
Thank You / James Long (Friend)
Please know as a father who loss his 12 year old son I do understand your pain. For my heart aches daily for our son Maurice. I want you to know that when I visit your precious Rachel web site, it brings tears to my eyes. I can clearly see what a precious child you have and how proud you are. I’m deeply sorry that you have to go through the most unbearable pain that any human could ever have to go through while living on earth. I know our hearts will forever be heavy while on earth. However, I want you to no that you have someone in Kentucky that thinks about you and your precious family. You’re a wonderful mother and please know that one day we will be with our children again. Until then it is my prayer that God continue to guide you each and every day and shower you with many Blessings. Thank you so much for taking the time through your own pain and thinking of others. What a special mother Rachel has.
Thinking of your precious family who loves and miss you dearly Rachel. Please know that you’re in our family prayers daily and may God continue to guide your family. We are so, so sorry for your loss and know that as promised we shall all be with our children and loves again, one day. And ye now therefore have sorrow: but I will see you again, and your heart shall rejoice, and your joy no man taketh from you. John 16:22