It has took me almost two yrs. to get the nerve up to write this.. I guess thats ok.. I have been keeping it in for so long..and i feel like its time to get it all out... I just still can't belive that you are gone..I just feel like I should have been there and called more..and there are a million things and words that i wish that i would have done or said.. but i guess thats all of us ...b/c no matter who,what,and why i guess that we all will feel like there is more that we should have done..I think what has made this so hard for me is that for some reason or another that i totaly blocked out the fact that you was sick.. i think that there is just that part of me that did not want to remember you that way.. is that selfish of me? Maybe it is and maybe it isnt..even though that i may not have been there as much as i liked to have been... but there was not a time that i did not have u on my mind or praying for you.. there are times that i ask why you? but I know things happpen and God has his reasons... You have been my friend and have been there for me y was it so hard for me to be there for you?! I don't understand!! I keep asking my self that question... We had our ups and our downs but what friends don't but i know they never lasted that long at all... we have shared so many memories and things together ... there are little things that just spark a memory of a fun time that we shared ... like the other day at work this song came on the radio that brought me back to that summer i think we were in seven or eighth grade when we were at M.Beach and at Coral Beach one night danceing hahaha..also, that one time when we were flying our kites on the beach and one landed in the sand and that guy told us that we hit someone with it lol and sissy ruthie yelling at that guy tellin him to get down that beach right now ..lol oh what good times! Also, last night as me and mark were sitting on the patio I saw these two little girls riding there bikes up and down that street and it made me smile because i remembered when i lived in pikeville in the APT. your dad would bring you and your bike over so that we could go riding around.. oh gosh there are so many good times that i could go on an on ..i know that u remember them too..Gosh ray i miss you so much its not even funny.. there are times when i remember things that i feel like you are here laughing and smiling with me ..sometimes you and Kyle are in my dreams and that makes me happy..I just want to tell you that u were and still are and always will be my bestest friend .. I feel that i have been truly blessed to have had you in my life... I know that i thank your mom and dad so very much to have givin me such a great friend ... and thank them for making me feel so at home when i was at your house.. this may be selfish or sound really bad of me but i really want to go to your house and vist with your mom and dad but there is a part of me that just can't seem to b/c u are not there...i will though!! you were and are one of the strongest people that i know.. you had been through so much and still stayed strong... your are a very remarkable person..I am gettin married in June Ray and oh how i wish that you could be there ...but i know that you will be there in spirt... there is a part of me that don't want to let you go of your memory b/c i don't want to forget all of the fun times that we have had from day care to college.. u have always been a great friend ...i will never for get your b-day because we are a week apart hehe.. I know ray that i will never forget you and our friendship... I Just want to thank you for just being the bestest friend that a girl could ask for...and just never forget what i told you ... "I will ALWAYS be your Dumplin and You will ALWAYS be my Ray-Ray!"
my littlest baby / Daddy
24 hours in a day-that is a long time-7 days in a week that s a long time-4 weeks in a month that s a long time -12 months in a year that s a long time- but eternity is forever -this space of time here on earth is just time a short time.Rachel was young compared to her mom and dad, her grandpsrents,her sister.she didn t want to die-but she was ready-heaven welcomed a new member to that heavenly choir- i don t understand why GOD took rachel-HE knows . HE made the earth, moon and stars-and gave life to the first 2 people. the bible says HE gave life and HE takes life,blessed be the name of the LORD. my small mind doesn t understand that.even the brightest person on earth can t start to understand that-but,we have to believe that there is a purpose for everything according to HIS will.Rachel had a smile, to people that knew her,they knew it was real-and she cared about small children who didn t have anything-she cared about old people like her grandparents.If a smile could write a book- she wrote several novels. For people s lives that she touched over her last 6 years of her life her on earth,people that her family will never know-God knows and he understands our hurt.people like derick deaton and jason thomas just to name a few who where short lived friends-we will never know what they meant to each other. people for some reason came in rachel s life but didn t stay long .Their lives were changed also.for the friends that knew her almost all her life. the list would go on and on.these people knew the real Rachel and loved her-this is just a short time of my thoughts that just came out now almost 2 years later after the loss of my littlest baby.sorry Rachel it took so long coming. Close
To sweet Rachel and her loving Family / Debbie~Mom To Jillian Bouwens Read >>
To sweet Rachel and her loving Family / Debbie~Mom To Jillian Bouwens
and cyper hugs on this St. Patricks day......... Close
Happy St. Patrick's Day Rachel! / Sue~ Mom To Ashley Trapp Read >>
Happy St. Patrick's Day Rachel! / Sue~ Mom To Ashley Trapp
May God grant you always… A sunbeam to warm you A moonbeam to charm you A sheltering Angel So nothing can harm you
Thinking of you / Jane Bovenzi
Marilyn, just wanted you to know how much we appreciate your beautiful messages that you are always leaving on Michaels site. I finally sat down & read Rachel's and at times I feel as though I am reading my own sons. Their illness was a lot alike & their character is so much alike. Michael also has a annual scholarship fund in his name at his high school. I just can't believe how much their illness & how much both of their names are still living on even after death. God bless you all, this is something a mom, dad, & sisters will never, ever be able to get over. Talk about our lives changing forever!!! I will continue to visit Rachel's site cause I have more to read, but it is awesome. Please take care & know someone else is hurting like you are and thinking of you. God bless you all. Sincerely, Jane Bovenzi Close
Were thinking of your family / Long Family (We Care )Read >>
Were thinking of your family / Long Family (We Care ) We think of your precious family often Rachel. And we pray that they be guided by the fond memories and Gods grace. You have a wonderful family who misses and love you dearly. With love from our family to yours.
Happy Valentines Day Sweetheart / Janicemom2Jennifer Pokerwinski (friend)Read >>
Happy Valentines Day Sweetheart / Janicemom2Jennifer Pokerwinski (friend)
Happy Valentines Day dear Rachel. Thinking of you Marilyn on this holiday. Wishing you and your family a wonderful day. Rachel send your family some hugs and kisses from heaven. Were sending them to you.
A Terrible Club / Kristy (Mia's Mom)
Marilyn, I TRULY KNOW how much you miss Rachel. The pain is so strong and I hope it helps to know you are not alone. It helps me. Close
Were thinking of your family / The Long Family (Friend)Read >>
Were thinking of your family / The Long Family (Friend)
Were thinking of you and holding your family in our prayers. May the warm memories and Gods love and grace be your source of strenght, knowing that one day you will be reunited precious Rachel. Thank you for your kind heart. With Love to your family from ours.
I was searching for a song called "A Thousand Miles" by Vanessa Carlton, and one of the results came from the Rachael Barnes Memorial Page. I never got to know Rachael or her family or friends, but it seems that she was an incredible blessing to all that knew her. I want her parents and other family members, as well as her friends to know that they have my deepest condolences and sympathy.
I am so sorry you lost your precious daughter. I know of no words that can possibly ease such pain. I read the site and even though I never knew Rachel, it is evident that she was a joy to all those who did know her. I will keep you and yours in my prayers.